The demons r everywhere

Im still à non smoker, sod all that one day at a time, you just have to go for it, beware it is Hard, first off the addiction is à twat, your mind plays games on you, tries to make you think you cant drink beer, coffee brandy well anything without à fag, when u get past that phase the physical pain starts, My body hurts, i mean really hurts, its like the worst flu ever and Tyson smacking ya body just for fun , but i Will not smoke again, they non smokers use the words will power very loosly. But at the end of the day thats all it Comes down to. WILLPOWER.
And thank god ive stopped, if im so sick now how bad would it have been had i waited another 5-10 yrs?
The poison that was in My body is gradually seeping out, that has been the only temptation to smoke again, thinking it might relief the pain?
so no logic there and no smoking,
Its à slow death sentence smoking. And the companies WHO make them know that, the governments WHO gain taxes from them know that, parents know that, so why the hell do kids start smoking. It aint cool, it stinks, you turn grey cant fight as fast, cant shag as Long, age premeturley and quite often you cant reproduce
Your teeth crack and fall out, eyes turn à really nice shade of yellow, then u usually die in à very painful way.
Thank god ive stopped

The NeXT time you hear that somebody you know has quit, make the effort to say well done, it means alot, the nexttime your With à friend WHO lights up, just say RIP

Happy days

2009 finished rather differently than it started.
I gigged in London Surrey Hills hotel, and for the first time in 7 yrs i didnt spend NYE alone! I was With the love of My life, à women who came back into My life in june, in march My partner of 14 yrs and Mum of My girls decided she didnt want to be With Me anymore, thats life........
Patti came to visit we were together 16 yrs ago and had stayed friends.
In june we were together again, jan 11 2011 we married on à carribean beach now that is romantic, true love never dies,

We have taken some stick, alot of lies Said i might add not by us, à women is à dangerous animal when in self pity moad.
Now ive been nice, tried to be polite, the usual stuff help her move from My house, help her sell My house, bring her car back from England (to Sweden) say nothing bad about her to anybody, unlike her, so it didnt come as any surprize when she turned on Me,
I didnt take any of the profits from the house, we agreed, its all for the kids. One problem shes decided to spend it all, she has put the gov on Me about Child support, and thinks that i dont mind that another fella is cashing in on the profit of 14 years work, er wrong, i really am happy for her that she has à New bloke and really do hope she Will be happy, but now i want whats lawfully mine, and im going to get it
Watch this space.

Smoking

If you have never smoked, you wont Care or understand what à sodding Hard habbit it is to break.
Most likely you look at smokers as second Class citizens? All you see is à discusting person WHO stinks!!!!!!
You cant stand walking by à pub and there they are puffin away polluting your air. You laugh when you see those sad bastards stood in the Rain dragging away on cancer sticks, your face geists With pain when one sits NeXT to you on à train. You cant understand why somebody willinglypays for à slow death, or how somebody whos broke can afford them.?
Well im à smoker and i agree With you, thats why i quit.
But what you dont understand is how Hard it is to break the demon. Thats what dags are demons. They control your life, you time your day around ciggie time!!!! Breaking the hold they have on your life is probably the hardest thing ive gone through and am going through.
And believe Me its a real twat.
I have tried so many times. Heard so many ways of quitting, but never cracked it, not until now that is.
There is only one way to stop, you really do have to want to quit.
Not because your partner wants you to, not because the kids hate it, deffinatley not because the government and pc brigade Tell you to, the fact that you cant smoke anywhere just winds Me up, its your choice to die Young , smell, and look like shit, nobody Else has the right to rule your life.
But if you really want to do it you can, dont kid yourself that ill just have à couple, ill only smoke at parties that doesnt work,
I was sat indoors, and after months of 'trying" i just thought fuck it, and that was that, dont get Me wrong i chew the gum stick the pkasters on, ive even got à spray do they help? Maybe but thats in the head, and well expensive. Governments around the globe spend millions on adverts, clever marketing and course making it illegal,
Why dont they help? They give druggies free drugs instead of throwing money spending millions on anti smoking, , maybe they should drop the price on stop smoking products?
It is very Hard to stop very very Hard , but i dont want to smoke so i simply wont,
If your thinking about stopping do it
If you have stopped well done,
Yes its Hard but it is well worth it